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“I don’t know what you want me to say. With you, I’ve felt things I never thought were truly possible. You’ve been the life altering change I needed the most, but Christ, Hale, I’m just me. Nothing special. You, you’re so much more that I don’t know that I can be what you need to keep you steady. I wish I knew for certain that I was, god do I wish it. I love you, that hasn’t changed. I just don’t know what to do.”
“Stop, just stop with that bullshit. This is the last time I will listen to you put yourself down. Your ex was a baby back bitch and I’d like to kick his fucking teeth in for ever making you think you were anything less than a queen. Yes, you’re you and your human. So what? What you fail to realize is that none of that matters to me. You’re the strongest woman I’ve ever met, and I mean that completely. I’m a selfish man, I won’t even try to deny it and I need you in my life.”
His words were everything I wanted and needed to hear. I didn’t doubt that he meant what he said, right then. My concern was down the road when the brand new, shiny toy appeal wore off and I was still just a human. What then? I feared he’d grow to resent me and that I’d be broken by his rejection.
“You say that now-” I started, wanting to explain my reasons so he didn’t think this was his fault.
“I wasn’t finished,” he said. “I’m not a good man. In fact, I can promise I’ll corrupt in all sorts of dirty ways and enjoy every second of it. I live for it.”